When Bourgeois Women Cry Their Tears Sting

January 31, 2007

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Warning: very long post and some over sixteen language. I apologize here for the poor grammar and chaotic content. Let this and other posts on this site stand as an example that paying attention in school is really kind of important.

Yet another rant on living in Germany. Here and here for more. This too will not be published in Der Spiegel.

Please note: I am not a misogynist, although the story here and the post below might cause you to think otherwise. If anything, sadly enough, I am by genetic coding a misanthrope. Beyond that I believe that human beings have been on the wrong path since, oh, let me see, Francis Bacon first coined the phrase “knowledge is power.” There is simply nothing since the paradigm shifting time of Bacon, whether one talks of religion, politics, science or whatever else man can come up with, that in any way addresses the misery of life on this planet. There is only the status quo driven by a one-sided Newtonian train of thought. This so disgusts me that I often get carried away and unfairly discharge my frustration(s) on fellow members of the herd. Fortunately my discharge consists of nothing violent, as I mean no harm. It’s as though everything is so bent and out of shape, so used and abused, that while trapped in a barrel of rotting apples, even I forget why everything that is sour could actually be sweet. Oh, if only there was a man out there who could set me straight. If only most men hadn’t become like women.

When Bourgeois Women Cry Their Tears Sting

Or

Why Do All Divorced Middle Aged German Women Have Sour Puss Faces?

Had an interesting weekend recently. Met up with acquaintances at a German pub in Düsseldorf. It was a casual night of drinking. Lasted till the wee hours. Pounded away “Altbier” as though I hadn’t had any in years – which is about right. As usual, when I drink too much beer I start to take things seriously. Tasting “Altbier” again was a joy and so I drank quite a few. A cordial round table of drinks can become a debate-hall-of-hell and I am more than willing to bare the brunt of flying rotten tomatoes, horse urine or, if any German male is able, a good old fashioned fist fight. But this night seemed, perhaps because of the extended lapse of not drinking in Düsseldorf, to be calm and lacked the slightest incident that could have the wings of a butterfly start a hurricane. I actually kept my tongue through most of the night and didn’t once let out the personal and standardized contempt I have for contemporary German society or the guided-by-the-blind western world in general. Ultimately, I yelled no un-called-for and insulting platitudes to Germans – which I tend to do as long as I don’t exceed a limit of, I don’t know, let’s say, ten or so beers. Seriously. It started out as a good night with the krauts.

Then this woman reared her sour puss face

The rambling and discharge of hate and frustration at being a loser among a world of losers is often a bit much and my relief valve is usually some chump that thinks s/he can hang with me on any intellectual level. Hence, this is why I have no friends and perhaps a reason why I have no job. It’s certainly the reason why I am poor but living among so many of the modern incarnation of bourgeoisie class Germans. Since I’m not a “class” guy, what the hell do I care about that? Well, the night went on and the beer flowed. Before it was over I managed to make a woman of today’s German bourgeois class cry. No great feet, I’ll tell ya. And I did so because I was very angered by her complaining. She was a woman of about forty. She had a son who was twelve. It was obvious that she lived comfortably but didn’t get out much. Although I feel bad for upsetting her, it was a very necessary moment and quite worth the effort. In fact, I regret more having pissed off my German girlfriend because of my insolence.

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Postcards, Inspiration, Learning to Hate the Bourgeoisie

January 24, 2007

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One of the many postcards, like letters here and here, I’ve collected over the years. Here’s another. As silly as it sounds, I collected postcards. They were always a great way to take with me some of the inspiration from European museums and other places. Some of the cards I sent, others I kept. Some I bought in two or threes, again, sending some but always keeping a copy for a shoebox. Some people collected pictures, I collected… When visiting museums I certainly couldn’t afford the high-gloss books that were sold to coincide with each exhibition. No, I had to go the cheap route.

Time for a very short monologue that wants to be dialog.

During a visit to Haus der Kunst München around 1993 a man not much older than me peeked over my shoulder while I was paying for this postcard. He said:

-It iz nice zat you visit Deutschland but you should take zis instead of zat silly little card.

He held up the massive exhibition booklet in one hand and a one-hundred Deutsche Mark bill in the other. I responded:

-Rutsch’ mir den Bukel runter, du Wichser.

I paid for three of these post cards, counting out the small denomination coins on the counter, making the man with the fine clothes, born of those f’n southern German Nazis, ungrateful to America (their makers?) and shunned the bourgeoisie idiot from Munich as he tried to start a conversation about how z’ Amerikan likes Bavaria and where I learned to speak German. Sounds silly to all the elitists out there who think taking-in a museum and then having champagne at brunch while reviewing the expensive exhibition book is a prerequisite of espousing cultivation… But if there is anything I wish to communicate with this text it is the contempt I have towards those who inherit a Porsche and so much free time and social misconceptions such as Vetternwirtschaft* or Klüngel* and… If the Germans have done anything with all the (American) support after WW2 it has been perfecting the idea that compulsive behavior can pay-off greatly in the form of a collective high living standard. Yeah. Germany is full of such people – people who live off of the means created by others. I mean, come on, they lost two f’n wars and yet they are still so f’n rich their only problem is figuring out why there isn’t enough snow to go skiing anymore (as of 2006, anyway).

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Henry Miller’s “Ideal Library”

January 21, 2007

Here’s the “Ideal Library” by Henry Miller, one of my favorite writers. Although I’ll probably never complete this list, I’ll admire it till the end and keep trying. It’s hard to believe that a man who considered knowledge to be part of what it means to be human would have to face obscenity charges because of some of the words he so brilliantly wrote down. I wonder in this day and age of WWF and American Idol if in some way Miller wasn’t only ahead of his time but perhaps part of a last breed of special humans that was able – and enabled – to express himself freely. Writers all should follow in the footsteps of this man and not the smeared steps of pop-writers of today. Oh, I’ll spread these tears on wax paper and steam iron them till they condense to a small cloud just below my left eye-lid…

Henry Miller’s “Ideal Library”

Miller compiled this list of greatest literary works for the book Pour une Bibliotheque Ideale, edited by Raymond Queneau.

Various. Stories from the Arabian Nights (for children).
Various. Greek Legends (for children).
Various. Knights of King Arthur’s Court.
Grimm. Fairy Tales.
Anderson. Fairy Tales.
Defoe, Daniel. Robinson Crusoe.
Swift, Jonathan. Gulliver’s Travels.
Peck, George W. Peck’s Bad Boy.
Carroll, Lewis. Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland.
Twain, Mark. Huckleberry Finn.
Dumas, Alexander. The Three Musqueteers.
Cooper, James Fennimore. The Leather-stocking tales.
Sienkiewicz, Henry. Quo Vadis?
Hugo, Victor. Les Misirables.
O’Henry. Complete Works.
Scott, Walter. Ivanhoe.
Bulwer-Lytton. The Last Days of Pompei.
Haggard, Rider. She.
Bellamy, Edward. Looking Backward.
Cellini, Benvenuto. Autobiography.
Rolland, Romain. Jean-Christophe.
Prescott. Conquest of Mexico and Peru.
du Maurier, George. Trilby.
Various. Ancient Greek Dramatists.
Emerson. Ralph Waldo. Representative Men.
Tennyson, Alfred. Idylls of the King.
Anonymous. Diary of a Lost One.
Thoreau, Henry David. Civil Disobedience, and Other Essays.
Sinnett, W. P. Esoteric Buddhism.
Strindberg. L’Orage.
Whitman, Walt. Leaves of Grass.
Spencer, Herbert. Autobiography.
Fabre, Henvi. Complete Works.
Maeterlinck, Maurice. Complete Works.
Petronius. The Satyricon.
Boccaccio. The Decameron.
Rabelais. Gargantua and Pantagruel.
Nietzsche. Complete Works.
Various. European Dramatists of the 19th Century.
Eltzbacher, Paul. Anarchism.
Kropotkin. Mutual Aid.
Powys, John Cowper. Visions and Revisions.
Dostoevsky, Fyodor. Complete Works.
Huysmans, J.-K. A Rebours.
Macken, Arthur. The Hill of Dreams.
Conrad, Joseph. Complete Works.
Mencken, Heni L. Prejudices.
Dreiser, Theodore. Complete Works.
Saltus, Edgar. The Imperial Purple.
Brontk, Emily. Wuthering Heights.
Weigall, Arthur. Almaton.
Belloc, Hilaire. The Path to Rome.
Hudson, W. H. Complete Works.
Hamsun, Knut. Complete Works.
Eckermann. Conversations with Goethe.
Latzko, Andreas. Men in War.
Van Gogh, Vincent. Letters to Theo.
Faure, Ilie. History of Art.
Spengler, Oswald. The Decline of the West.
Proust, Marcel. Remembrance of Things Past.
Mann, Thomas. The Magic Mountain.
Joyce, James. Ulysses.
Duhamel. Life and Adventures of Salavin.
Abilard. History of my Misfortunes.
Gutkind, Erich. The Absolute Collective.
Suzuki. Zen Buddhism.
Lao-Tse. Tae te Ching.
Alain-Fournier. Le Grand Meaulnes.
Gide, Andri. Dostoevsky.
Breton, Andri. Nadja.
Keyserling. South American Meditations.
Fenollosa. The Chinese Written Characters as a Medium for Poetry.
Nostrodamus. The Centuries.
Giono, Jean. Refus d’Obiissance; Que ma Joie demeure; Jean le Bleu.
Ciline. Voyage to the End of the Night.
Nerval, Girard de. Complete Works.
Rimbaud, Arthur. Complete Works.
Nikinsky. Nijinsky’s Diary.
Rudhyar, Dane. The Astrology of Personality.
Balzac. Seraphita; Louis Lambert.
Suarhs, Carlo. Krishnamurti.
Blavatsky. The Secret Doctrine.
Various. Letters from the Mahatmas.
Rolland, Romain. Prophhtes de la Nouvelle-Inde.
Various. Gospel of Ramakrishna.
Cendrars, Blaise. Complete Works.
Sikilianos, Anghelos. Proanakrousma.
Percival, W. O. William Blake’s Circle of Destiny.
Chsterson, W. K. Saint Francis of Assisi.
Wasserman, Jacob. The Mauritzius Affair.
Nordhoff & Hall. Pitcairn Island.
Welsh, Golbraith. Timbuctoo.
Werfel. The Star of the Unborn.
Hesse, Herman. Siddhartha.
Long, Haniel. Interlinear to Cabeza de Vaca.

-tgs-

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Illuminate Me, Please

January 11, 2007

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This is not a book review. This or this is also not a book review. This is just a way to add another post to my blog so that I can feel as though I’ve achieved something after having failed at everything else I’ve ever tried.

Just finished this book. What a brilliantly written piece of work. It is deserving of awards, unabridged praise, screams, academic purchasing, and even, perhaps, putting the author into some kind of hall-of-fame. Oh, and let’s not forget the deserved film rights.

But…

I struggled hard to get through this book. It took me months to read. Not unlike Eugenides’ Middlesex, this novel by Jonathan Safran Foer is so well written that the story doesn’t matter. In fact, I lost interest in the story very early on. That might sound strange, but just hang-on a sec.

Why would I finish reading a book if I wasn’t interested in the story?

Books like this get recognized and I’m trying to figure out why. Obviously Safran can write. He could write rings around me. Although I don’t like this story I do like the writing. Brilliant. I say again, the story sucks but that’s doesn’t matter. The writer is so frickin’ smart that once I gave up on the story I just focused on Safran’s ability to chisel away and turn a block of rock into a sculpture. Safran is an artist and I love/hate him.

I guess, in a way, “art” isn’t what appears at the end but the getting there…

Whatever.

-tgs-

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9,999

January 10, 2007

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Being a (worst)writer is one thing, promoting such a way of life another. Having said that and refraining in this post from bitch-slapping the corporate dunces out there, I’d like to take a moment to thank those of you who helped push me over an edge recently. I must admit that I’ve been watching the “blog stat” thing ever since I started this – or at least ever since I got serious about posting to it. I never thought, in my wildest dreams, that I might attract so many hits. Seriously. I have no clue as to what a “hit” even is. And… Considering that I have no friends, I have no job, I don’t own a thing (which is good, btw), this is kinda neat-o-torpedo. Then there’s the fact that I don’t even know grammar – hence the “worst” in the “writer” title. Anywho. This is certainly a milestone. So who should I thank first? The corporate moron who started this whole internet krapp…? Whatever.

-tgs-


Woman on Her Side

January 10, 2007

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A mountain range in Thailand. Oh, how I love the imagination of nature.

-tgs-


Corporate Management Letter of Acknowledgment

January 8, 2007

Yet another open post and content offering for the corporate dunces out there that have by their own nature no creative ability. Here and here a previous offering.

Please note that with this letter I am only trying to do my part as a human being. It is obvious that anyone who believes in the religionisation of corporatism has already sunken to the abysmal depths of living for untruth. Therefore, I feel it my duty to help others that obviously are more fortunate than I because they have the ability to fit into their Lemming world. I failed at this and you can joyously read about that here. Anywho. I’m truly sorry that so many people, in order to pay their mortgages, fill their multiple-ton automobiles with gas, and raise their children to be as stupid as they are, lack so much in the area of creative ability.

Disclaimer. I hereby give permission to loser-career-fools of the world to use whole or in part the contents provided below. But I take no responsibility for the aftermath of your using it. Let me repeat. If you use this letter, as a “manager” or “VP” or “executive” in a corporation to acknowledge those below you I take no responsibility for the aftermath. Nuff said.

Corporate Management Letter of Acknowledgment

Dear Fool Careerist,
Or
Dear Career Subservient,

As your manager and subsequently decider of fate in your life I would like to take this opportunity to acknowledge your professionalism and valuable collaboration within Corporate Department that you adhered to every day of your sorry life over the past year.

We at Corporate Enterprise think of you as little as possible and hence cherish your independence as a worker-bee. Having said that, we also appreciate your contribution in the area of mouth-shutting and collaborative coercive cooperation in the area of maintaining the status-quo within our corporate walls. Although there was much rumor mongering among your peers (e.g. fellow careerists who will obviously have to move on) regarding the coming year, we especially appreciate your dedication to not sharing personal ideals about positions, stature and the un-justifiability of corporate salaries.

On a personal note I would like to especially acknowledge your participation at the end-of-year employee shareholder meeting. Your comment regarding the demise of “merit” as a catalyst for “achievement” in the corporate world has been slightly reformulated and our beloved and most respected CEO has a taken a personal interest in you and your ability to formulate untruth as one sees it.

Yes, dearest Fool Careerist (or Career Subservient), we at Corporate Department will continue to move forward with ongoing activities and new initiatives and together will hopefully contribute to our growing business. If this is not the case then you should prepare yourself during your New Year celebration (prior to Jan. 2 work return) for the worst in the coming year. Otherwise, please join me in this new year in celebrating our relative and compromised successes with pride and anticipating our future with a true sense of excitement, all the while knowing that we in Corporate Department have a new mission:

To put one-hundred and ten percent into everything that happens and is required of you (worker-bee), to serve all those we serve with passion and awe, and to explore every possible possibility of our Corporate Department’s world in order to help improve the lives of every human being that happens to be lucky enough to sit above us.

May this holiday season be really cool and you enjoy yourself beyond belief.

Happy F U New Year !!

Signed,
Manager Idiot

-tgs-

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