Women love love

Right in the middle of producing my play The Good Criminal (Der gute Kriminelle), 2004, my then-wife decided to call it quits. From a relationship point-of-view I can't blame her. But the timing… I haven't been able to recover from this yet. Nor do I think her reaction to our situation was the right one. It's a shame, especially for our son, that she couldn't have a bit more patience and understanding.

Jonathan Wolfgang von Goethe said: "A creation of importance can only be produced when its author isolates himself, it is a child of solitude."

Does that mean that a relationship must suffer? I don't believe so.

How do you make it clear that to be creative you have to be alone. There needs to be some sacrifice on the part of those involved in order to nurture the process. Is this so contrary to a woman and her idea of love, marriage and family? It's not my intention to sound mean but the one I married didn't sacrifice one – NOT ONE! – thing for our marriage and certainly nothing for my creative endeavors. For her I left my country. I worked jobs I hated. I tried to afford her something of a life. I did all this for almost ten years. And when the bottom fell out was she there for me? In giving up on me I never thought she'd be so destructive to my creative edeavors.

What I learned from marriage? Women love love!

Let me be clear on that last statement. Woman love (verb) love (noun).

For you creative boys out there who are thinking about joining up with someone, especially a chick, heed this: for a woman the actual man, his person, doesn't matter. That means: your persona matters, your physical-ness matters, definately your bank account matters. Although women have freed themselves from the confines of the past, and that needs to be celebrated, there are a few things they still just don't get. One of them is that a man equates freedom with what it is he has to do to get through life. No wonder there's so much divorce these days. Other than growing up in a broken home I have never experienced anything more one sided than marriage. What a shame – I had so much love to give.

To you girls out there wanting some excitement in your lives instead of the humdrum of the domesticated life you ultimately face. Tough luck. You will eventually learn that there is no such thing as Santa or living happily ever after and barbie and everything it represents is a fuckin' cruel joke.

Boo fuckin' who ;-(

tgs

PS Talk about hard work. All for not. All for nothing. Marriage sucks. Who the fuck cares.

PSS … see post

A good experience in playwrighting

The International School of Düsseldorf. Senior class final exam in Drama, 2002. About twenty students put on a production of three of my plays. What an experience! Although one play was just a "reading" the others were full productions. Hats off to you guys! I especially want to thank Hammi for his intepretation of Birdgames. He creatively split Woman into two people. It worked.